People tend to say that being a mum is not an easy job. I personally think that it's an understatement. Being a mum is darn tough! I realise it now as I go through motherhood myself.
I must say, pregnancy for me was a breeze. No morn/aft/eve sickness. Am not picky with food, was actually craving for durians! No mood swings. I was able to carry on with my work without any interruptions. Only around the 7th or 8th month where my legs swell and I was not able to sleep well as my baby was partying from 12midnight till 4am almost every day! Otherwise, everything was fine. That is why people say, if you ever have a breeze pregnancy, you'll suffer after that!
The tough part started from delivery. I had to go through a c-section. Baby was too big for me and it was not crowning. The anesthecian didn't do a good job hence I actually felt the pain half-way through the operation. The only comfort that I had then was the 'happy gas' and that wasn't enough. It was an experience that I wish I don't have to go through again.
Then comes the real thing, of being a mum. Waking up every 2-hrs to feed my baby for the first 3-mths, cracking my head trying to figure out what's wrong with my baby when he cries, keeping myself awake when my baby decides to wake up at 11pm and not wanting to sleep till 9am, staying up to look after them when they are ill, challenge with feeding my baby solids when he's picky and insist of eating what he wants only, not being able to eat out as my baby decides to throw a tantrum every time when we walk into the restaurant, and the list goes on.
If you have someone helping you out, that's great. As for me, having to handle motherhood on my own, at the same time juggling with my other roles of being a wife, a working director for a travel agency & a daughter to my mum equals suicide! The constant craving for attention, both from my baby & my work is enough to drive me mad. Not forgetting being sleep deprived every day for the past 2-yrs as my baby still wakes up 2-3 times at night for his feed till today makes it even tougher.
We can read all the books on babies or parenting, exchange views/tips from other mommies or research on the internet. All these work as a guideline only. It might not be applicable for your child. Every child is different.
I was really hoping to enjoy motherhood. However, with all the challenges throwing itself to me at once, I would say it's nearly impossible at this point of time. All I hope and pray for now is that God have mercy on me and bless me with an easier life of less challenges from all aspects.
